I have to find a job, soon. This sucks. Then ill go to school, pick up Easton, take him home, and leave for work. ): I'll never see my son. Morgans Enlisting into the military. I'm not sure how to feel about that. Because now my dreams of someday going into the Air Force could be out the window. I'm not gonna leave Easton with one of my family members, much less Morgans mom. And I don't know who i would leave him with. Because if Morgan and I both get deployed, who will take care of him. I don't trust Morgans mom, much less my mom. My dad couldn't handle another baby. And i refuse to send him with my sisters. So my only option is to let Morgan join, and I find a different dream... But how do you find a different dream, if this has been your dream since you first saw an airplane.? Easton has an ear infection, and a really bad cough, I'm just scared that its gonna be RSV and he won't be able to get rid of it. I'm not sure what I'm gonna do if my baby boy does have it.): What scares me the most, is that with school, and getting a job Easton won't even know who i am when he gets older. The only time I'll see him is when I get home, and he'll be asleep already. ):