Happy, sad, everything in between...

My heart breaks when my son wakes up at 330 every night screaming. Because he's having another nightmare, of his mother being attacked by his father. Because he's having separation anxiety because his father keeps walkin in and out of his life. Im happy because when he's awake, he's pure smiles. Always happy, brightening everyone elses day. But, he still isn't back to his old self. It's been almost a month. I just want my baby to be okayy. /: Momma is sorry bubba it'll get better. Im not going no where. Im not even leavin for basic until I know your okayy. And until we've moved away. Far away from here. And from what we've been through, and this past that is killing me, and will one day kill you. I love you bubba. Momma will always be here.!

; My story isnt over yet.

Okay, so I've had this money for a new car, for about a month now. But i still have no new car. I'm getting kind of irritated. Morgan and I are doing amazing. Easton is growing like crazy. He weighs four pounds less than Ryker, and Ryker is 9 months old! That's crazy.! He is also four inches shorter than Ryker. Wow. My son is going to be taller than me. Its sad, but its good.(: I want my car already, but looks like that won't happen anytime soon.): I'm irritated with my parents. There gone every weekend, and tell me i'm not allowed to stay anywhere. I dont want to be there when they get home. They wake up Easton with there fighting. My life sucks, but I'm getting through it, for Easton, And for Morgan.
; My story isn't over yet. (:

New Car.!

So, I want a Chevy Impala. My dad wants me to get a Chrysler 300 M. But i think the body on the Chrysler is UGLY.! I mean its my money. They won't let me get the jeep I want. So i should at least get the Chevy Impala. Right.? You would think. All the Impalas I want are under my price range. So why not.? I mean seriously.! Both my sisters got the cars they wanted. So, why couldn't i get the car i want in return.? The one my dad wants me to get is a grand over my price range at least, If not more. I mean, come on. You guys talk about how I'm an adult. So, if I'm an adult, and this is MY Money, shouldn't I be able to choose.? My parents want me to get a cheap car, so they can use a grand of MY  money to get my mom a new car. UHMMMM, NOT HAPPENING.!! And they say I'm being selfish. My moms car runs great.! Its in amazing condition. The only thing wrong with it, is that the transmition slips, slightly. Its not even anything to worry about yet. She still has like another 3 to 5 years before thats an issue. So why are they more worried about getting her a car, when mine you have to manually shift.? Its an automatic. That should NOT happen.! Ever, at all.!

NEXT YEARRR.!!!!!!

I'm SO Excited.! I got denied for this year, because there day care is full. But there gonna set me up, so that i get into the day care, and go to school there next year.!(: You have no idea how happy that makes me.! It makes me very happy.!!(: My day is absolutely made.! Easton was in an amazing mood this morning. Him and grandpa were growling and laughing at each other.!(: My new favorite song is "Give me a reason" By Pink.(: My life, is really good right now. Ben and I are hanging out either Thursday or Friday. I'm actually kind of excited to see how that plans out for me. Lol. Morgan and I are supposed to do something, Just Us this weekend. Have alone time.. Ha Ha. I don't know what to think about that. But hey, We'll see i guess. My last few days have been amazing. I'm sad to be transferring, because I'm going to miss people. But I'm happy as well, because I need this. Not just for me, but for Easton as well.

Transferring..?

Transferring.!!! If not this quarter, next year. I'm going to miss everyone, but i am SOOO happy to get the hell out of this place. My friends will be mad, but its whats best. I had a meeting to see if i could go back to school. I'm seeing how classes go today, then deciding.. Lol I want to transfer. I need a change. Its been a weird spring break.! I had fun though. Had a babysitter friday, so went out. Lol, went to the clubhouse.(: I love those boys.! They make everything better. Saturday Easton decided the only way he'd sleep, is if i took him for a car ride. So me and Ben took Easton, and drove around for Three and a half hours.(: It was good to see Ben again. I'm glad were friends again. Morgan and I are on and off, of course. More drama. Lol. I went to omaha to go shopping yesterday.(: got me an outfit, and of course, Easton the cutest outfit in the world.!(: I love my son, more than anything in the world.!

Coffeee

I like coffee.?!?! Haha.!

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Don't know what to do anymore.):